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So long, and thanks for all the fish!

I've removed some people from my friends list. Don't be offended.

Books 2009, not counting non-fiction

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15. McCarthy - The Road

I don't think I understood this book. It was beautifully written, but the message didn't reach me. It just made me feel stupid. :| I guess the book is supposed to be metaphorical or something, but I just DIDN'T GET IT. McCarthy has created an interesting world, though. In my imagination, after a catastrophe killing tons of people the remaining people would work together to build a better world, not turn against each other.

16. Orwell - Animal Farm

Now, this is an impressive book! I've never read Orwell. It is very thought-provoking and challenged my worldview, and I recommend it to everyone who hasn't read it yet :) Though I admit, it's a "simple" book - easy reading, quite straightforward. Nevertheless, I liked it very much.

Now reading: Fitzgerald - the Great Gatsby and Tartt - Little Friend.

HOLY SHIT I SAW A GOOGLE CAR TODAY

DO YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS

I've been watching Frasier like mad lately. OMG, I love Niles! <3

I really want to start folk dancing again and I also would like to go to poem reciting classes. I'm so hip. *facepalm*

I need to make some important decisions, but there are some things one just has to go through alone.

Maybe I really just sometimes need to do what I want. But I'm so used to just doing what's expected of me, I don't even know what it is. Like, dates: I go on dates with guys, even though I'm not really even interested, just because I want to be a normal person doing what normal people do, and because society and family puts pressure on me. I study in the university, not necessarily because I want to, but because my parents brainwashed me to apply. I usually cry my eyes out if someone critisizes me, because I just really want others to like me, and I want to be worthwhile.

I'm supposed to go on a date on Monday or so, but if I don't really feel anything when the guy touches me and I'm happier when he's gone than when I'm with him, is it really use to go?

I'm quite lost, to be honest. Whenever I'm with people, I'm genuinely very joyful, like you wouldn't believe. I pretty much smile all the time if I'm having fun, I'm a very open person in terms of body language. But the moment I'm alone I get just overwhelmingly sad or apathetic. But, because I'm still a social human being, I was told there's nothing wrong with me! Can you believe it, a completely healthy human being, fitting in the norms of society! I am a fucking NORMAL human being. I guess I should just start working my way towards a decent job, marriage and a couple of children. Unless I get lost on the way there.

My computer is broken. When it asks for a password, the keyboard just doesn't function and I can't type the password.

I set it so that it doesn't ask the password any more. I feel like this isn't exactly the right solution to the problem.
I think I'll have to buy a new laptop.

edit: Now that my computer is on again for a change I checked out some things, and I think I know what the problem is! My C: is almost full. I have no idea why, though. I think it's because of my new anti-virus system. The last time I checked it wasn't this full. Explains why my computer has been running so slow.

I just can't let go. I get lost in other people's characters and their stories, imagination, ideals. I need to find something again, anything!

Sometimes I think Finland really rules.

What is in Quaker instant oatmeal: WHOLE GRAIN ROLLED OATS (WITH OAT BRAN), OAT FLOUR, CALCIUM CARBONATE, SALT, GUAR GUM, CARAMEL COLOR, REDUCED IRON, VITAMIN A PALMITATE, NIACINAMIDE*, PYRIDOXINE HYDROCHLORIDE*, RIBOFLAVIN*, THIAMIN MONONITRATE*, FOLIC ACID*.

What is in my instant oatmeal: OAT

A quick update, because I also use this as a diary, to remind me of things.
Today I saw some teenage girl looking at me like I often look at people whose way of dressing I adore and who want to be like. It felt nice.

Oh man! I just realized what Google Maps Street view is. It's amazing! Is there a street view of your city? If yes can you please show me your favourite places?
There's not one of Helsinki :( It'd be so awesome if there was!

In case someone messaged me, I didn't get it. It showed that I have one new message, but when I checked there weren't any.

This year, I will make a lot of new friends. I'm not the shy antisocial awkward person any more, this is partly a resolution and partly a fact. I also will manage to finally make my bachelor's thesis and then go study abroad one year. I've already made a study plan, except I haven't applied to Erasmus exchange program, and I'm not sure yet what to study there. I will lessen time on Internet, and I will learn a bit of Russian and read non-fiction books and lots of different newspapers. I will take good care of my house plant :) And if I have time, I'll go do yoga, kickboxing, and folk dancing. This will be a good year.

Those of you who think the war in Iraq was justified, can you please tell me why? Being Finnish and a pacifist I simply don't understand it. I can't believe people think it was the right thing to do.

Merry Christmas, everyone!

I was with a friend at a "traditional music" event, and met a man who actually plays violin in a band called Värttinä. And he had a nyckelharpa!! I got to try it! It was awesome! I want one! I also want a glass harmonica, erhu, sitar and most of all, a theremin! Theremins rule hardcore.
I've seriously considered starting to play traditional music with violin. It's just that my violin's too small for me and I don't want to buy a new one. Actually, this said friend is going to China in December, maybe I should ask her to bring me a violin! They are very cheap there compared to western ones. They're not as good, but as I don't play much, I don't want to buy an expensive one.

I'd really like to start playing again, but I don't like classical music. Traditional is much more fun to play. I'm not really good at playing anything, and I'm not really musical, I can't compose anything. But I enjoy music very much.

( to clarify what I talk about, I give you Youtube! )